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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Alright Blogspot

Why is this not working correctly for me, I'll make a post, and then it just doesn't post on the interweb.
I feel old and immature today.
I'm thinking about how most of my really good friends, or well people that I admire as well, that they've all managed to get thier life together and feel secure with themselves, and they're doing things like get married, buy houses (yes houses) and two of my friends now are going for baby #2, Amy (who is preg-o) and Nate/Laura (who maybe preg-o). I think that's wonderful though, I'm just wondering why it seems to take me so long to get things right. Will I ever be ready for the things that others around me have accomplished? Do I want these things? I don't seem to, I mean I don't act like it.
It's time to do something about that I guess. I mean the party only lasts for so long right? It's okay to stay up til 4 in the morning every once in a while. Maybe I should pick up all those books that fell on my bedroom floor a month or so ago when I drunkenly rammed into my bookshelf.
Maybe I shouldn't get so drunk.
I mean sometimes I feel like this pathetic bloated geezer holding onto whatever is left of 19, completely frying my brain, my liver, my lungs, refusing to fess up that I am not as responsible as I think I am, and well resulting in very little self worth and esteem.
Luckily the world offers lots of change.
Going back to school is step 1.
Actually I think getting those damn books off my floor is step 1
step 2 is probably the dishes, maybe some dusting.


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